My 21st birthday just passed two days ago and I wouldn't say I had a blast . It was nothing I imagined , there were no crazy celebrations nor events . In fact it was quite sad due to some unfortunate events but miraculously I think I truly learnt one of the most important lessons in my life .
I've learnt how to be contented for everything I have . I am more than contented to have everybody I have in my life . Now I know I do not need all the expensive clothes and accessories to 'package' myself and try to be someone I'm not . I'm not more beautiful if I need all the expensive things to represent me . Beauty starts from within and I believe it . After living for 20 years, I finally know who I am deep inside and I decided to be a better person than before .
I've also learnt to differentiate between indulgence and obsession . No kind of obsession is good .
Right now if I have all the money in the world , I will donate them to people who need it more than me . Obviously I dont have the money or power but I'll try to do things to give back to the society .
I learnt a really important lesson though in the hard way (but I always learn my lessons in the hard way) and a part of me is thankful because through all the different obstacles I overcome , I grow as a person and I'm glad I'm sort of being lead onto the right way . I believe everything in life happens for a reason .
Lastly , I am really thankful towards everyone who loves me . A big thank you to everyone who wished me happy birthday and those we made my surprise party last weekend a memorable one for me . I want to thank my Mum for always being the greatest support in my life and always teaching me the right way of living . I'm also grateful to have my siblings though they may be damn irritating some times.
Lastly I am really really really thankful and glad to have Kel in my life . Even though he may not be the richest or the most intelligent man who ever walked the earth , he probably got one of the best heart and that to me is the most precious gift of all . So thank you baby for being by my side through all the ups and downs (especially the downs) and for everything you did for me (really everything , you know it). I dont know what else I can say because words cannot describe how I really feel.
I will upload pictures of my surprise party last week when dear Cheng is back from her Tokyo trip ! *Envious*
Anyway I am starting work tomorrow and I am nervous like hell ! For now , I just want to put everything behind me (at least for the rest of today) and enjoy the last few precious hours of the unemployed life .
XOXO ,
21-year-old me .
